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I know you\u2019re out there<\/strong><\/p>\n I\u2019ve been where you\u2019re at<\/strong><\/p>\n or<\/strong><\/p>\n Suicide emergency instructions<\/strong><\/p>\n \u201cSuicide isn\u2019t the answer.\u201d<\/p>\n You hear that a lot, usually from people who have zero idea what you are going through. I know what you\u2019re going through, so I\u2019m NOT going to tell you that.<\/p>\n I\u2019m going to tell you the truth\u2026no one knows if it\u2019s the answer, but there is only one irreversible way to find out that it isn\u2019t.<\/p>\n Assuming your life has led you to the point where you are ready to find out, we can also assume based on your judgment, luck or the way the dice are rolling for you, that anything you do is probably going to turnout badly. SO \u2026doing something irreversible that\u2019s bad \u2026would be bad, and irreversible. You\u2019re at the dark, bleak, painful rock bottom. You are at the lowest emotional point man is capable of reaching, accept the fact\u2026 that because of all this, your head is not in the game and there may be variables you\u2019re not considering that could be made worse. If you\u2019re life went to hell while you were in charge of it\u2026you are clearly not qualified to decide if this is a good time to end it.<\/p>\n So, what about that gut wrenching pain that you cannot shake? That isn\u2019t going away and needs to be dealt with NOW?<\/p>\n Here are some things to try to ease it long enough to get your head together.<\/p>\n 1-do anything you want. Quit smoking three years ago? fuck it, smoke a cigarette. Eat a cheeseburger that\u2019s full of cholesterol. spend your last 9 dollars on a movie\u2026or sneak in. do something, anything. Something small\u2026and enjoy it. Enjoy it as though it\u2019s the last time you will ever do it. Because that\u2019s what we are talking about here right? Do some small thing that you enjoy as though it\u2019s the last time and realize how great that small thing is\u2026and realize you can do it again tomorrow.<\/p>\n 2- Vent\u2026to anyone. Call someone and vent, cry, scream. Is it 3:00 am? Who gives a fuck, wake someone up\u2026because you can bet your ass that person you are afraid to wake up will be the first asshole at your funeral lamenting that they wished they could have done something.<\/p>\n 3- Get the fuck out of the house. Don\u2019t stay isolated with dark thoughts in a place where there is no one around as a contrast. Get out and go to a store, a fast food restaurant. Don\u2019t have any money? Fuck it, order a water and sit there, Go to a library, go somewhere crowded\u2026if nothing else, the noise, the obnoxious superficial problems you overhear against your will, will at least get you annoyed at your fellow man instead of focused on your own problems.<\/p>\n 4-Get in an argument. I don\u2019t mean something meaningful and emotionally draining \u2026I mean some silly flame war on the internet. You\u2019ll full of anxiety, and while it feels like you are drained and exhausted, you\u2019re actually full of energy that you have no outlet for. Your engine is overheating and stalling out. You have to burn out the fuel. Get on the internet and argue about Rutherford B Hayes or sponge bob square pants being better than Ren and Stimpy. Argue and get into over something. Use up that energy on something that isn\u2019t going to keep you focused on what brought you to this point.<\/p>\n 5- Laugh. Find something that makes you laugh and watch it. Don\u2019t turn on some sad music, or a movie that\u2019s going to help you pick at the wounds. Find something that will force a laugh out of you.<\/p>\n this May help\u2026\u00a0 http:\/\/www.arseniclullabies.com\/asvxmasbunker.html<\/a><\/p>\n Rinse \u2026repeat. You can always kill yourself later\u2026you can always kill yourself later\u2026you can always kill yourself LATER. You will always have that option, until you use it. You might as well just do one more thing\u2026and one more thing\u2026<\/p>\n See you tomorrow.<\/p>\n In the meantime, listen to this podcast.\u00a0 This is only for those who know the pain I am talking about, the rest of you go away.<\/p>\n \u00a0On our website \u2013\u00a0 http:\/\/www.arseniclullabies.com\/Podcasts\/avs121003a.mp3<\/a><\/p>\n and newly added to these sites, just in case some passerby might need it<\/p>\n On Bitchute- https:\/\/www.bitchute.com\/video\/N4VhvfXRmzGQ\/<\/a><\/p>\n On youtube-\u00a0 https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=q3lcUxVQ2ps&t=9s<\/a><\/p>\n \u00a0www.arseniclullabies.com<\/a><\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"